Party like a rockstar!

29 05 2008

That is what I will be doing tomorrow at about 2:46 (I get off work at 2:45).  Tomorrow is my last scheduled day at one of my three jobs.  To say that I am excited is such an understatement.  I will be working less, but making more.  Love it.  And I will be off work most of the days that I have Jake.  AWESOMENESS.  Pools, parties, friends, family.  I am thrilled to be able to have time now for “luxuries.”  Well, at least they are to me.  I am going to a midnight showing of Sex and the City today.  To, you know, kick off the party.  I have been looking forward to this movie since the series ended.  I am enjoying being excited about some stuff, rather than my usual dread for all things.  ALL THINGS.  Life is good.  And as of Monday, I will be sleeping in most days.  Totally awesome.  Gotta go or I’ll be late for the movie!!



27 05 2008

Well, it is almost the end of the school year and one of my jobs will go on a 10-week hiatus.  Thank God.  I love my job and am really good at it, if I don’t say so myself.  I can only imagine that this is not somewhere that God wants me to be since I have been faced with stronger and stronger animosity as the year comes to a close.  I do not want to leave this job.  The hours are perfect, the location is perfect and I really do love what I do.  It may be time to move on.  Fortunately, I have some time to explore other options this summer.  If I find something more lucrative, great, if not, then I will enjoy what I have.

I am trying to stay positive and upbeat…when I really want to know how many knives are in my back.  I am unable to see them, but I know there is more than one, probably more like 4 or 5.  Along with knives, a few folks give them a twist from time to time for good measure. 

I can not wait until Friday.  If I can make it.  Ugh.

Oops! He did it again

24 05 2008

He proved what a complete ASS he is.  I am totally used to his behavior toward me.  When he starts taking it out on Jake…that truly pisses me off.  I won’t get into the whole story-in short he is blowing Jake off because he is mad at me.  Which would be fine if I were not scheduled to work all weekend.  My mom will watch Jake-that is no big deal.  And Jake will have a total blast.  The point is if the ex-factor decides on a whim that it’s my weekend with Jake, I do not want to be working!  It makes me sad for Jake. My little man called his dad and he would not answer his phone.  Jake’s hurt feelings were heard in his sad, quiet voice when he told me..  And I am stuck at work.  I am so furious at him for hurting Jake’s feelings! I know he is master at hurting people’s feelings.  It was a mainstay in the marriage.  For him to be this down right slimy to his own child, well, that is the lowest of low. 

I am constantly disgusted at now mean and rude people can be.  Another reminder that we live in a fallen world.

Special ED

14 05 2008

For one of my jobs, I work in the Special Education Department of a school district.  The job mainly entails administrative work and sometimes I am required to visit school for various reasons.  Yesterday, I visited a dozen schools to pick up activities.  Busy and somewhat hectic was my day.

I walked into a classroom of a middle school to talk to a teacher.  As soon as I walked in, I was greeted with a student yelling “OH SNAP!” at me.  Because of his lisp, it sounded more like “OH STHNAP!”  Funny.  And shocking.  I utilized my coping strategies from the psych unit.  Avoid eye contact.  Pretend to be invisible.  And busy.  I also instinctively backed myself against the door.  In order to facilitate a quick exit.  I conversed with the teacher briefly and he directed me to another room.  He offered to have a student direct me, but I assured him that I could find it on my own.  What is funny ,and incredibly sad, is I wasn’t taken back by getting male attention from a student, I was taken back, shocked to be getting any male attention.  Never mind the fact that he is in MIDDLE SCHOOL.  Or the fact that he is in special ed. 

My life just gets more and more pathetic by the day.

At least I know where to go if I want a date.


***please note: I hope that it is understood that I am not making fun of him-at all.  I am making fun of ME.  It is much easier.***


13 05 2008

So tonight while watching “The Hills” season finale on MTV, a preview for a new series aired.  It is a spin off of “Sweet Sixteen,” a show that highlightssweet 16 parties.  I watched a few episodes of this show and was floored by the cost of these parties, some well into six-figures.  This was unbelievable to me.  I do not feel that I lack anything nor am I in any way deprived.  So, in the new show, “Exiled,” the girls featured in “Sweet Sixteen” are now out of high school and still act like spoiled brats.  Shock.  Their parents decide to send them, with the help of MTV, to an indigenous village to learn how to work and how the “other” world lives.  During the preview, the girls are FAH-REAKIN’ OUT.  Each one is in disbelief that daddy would send them off half-way around the world.  The thing is?  I would much rather have the experienceof going to Africa or India than I would a big ol’ party.  I do not like being the center of attention.  I do not like how people who are act.  I know that I am more than capable of acting a-fool in multiple situations.  I certainly do not want to be the focus of the day when I am doing so.  That is why I do not get out much. 

I can’t help but think how this experience will not do much for the world’s view of Americans.  It will, hopefully, be a life-changing event for these girls.  I will be watching since I don’t have a life and will let you know how it goes.

Without cable, I am nothing.

Here is an article about the show.  I could not find the preview on youtube-check it out if you get a chance and can find it.!-spin-off-featuring-my-super-sweet-16-teens-6392.php

In case you might be hungry in the morning.

8 05 2008

This most likely follows this dinner. Go figure.

Shhh…don’t tell anyone.

7 05 2008

As a parent, I desire to expose Jake to a variety of experiences.  I feel that I have done well, as he is well rounded and intelligent, though there is one experience that has been out of our world.  WWE.  It most likely would remain out of our realm, except, for his birthday, my nephew received 4 tickets to the WWE Raw (still I have no idea what that means.  My sister tried to explain it.  All I heard was “blah, blah, Monday night, blah, blah).  So my nephew wants to take Jake.  And that leaves two tickets and no one wants to claim them.  My sis decides to go and I concede as well.  At least the people watching:  you KNOW that will be good.  I will have camera in hand.  And I’ll be counting the mullets…one, two, three….eight hundred twenty-four.  Wish me luck.

Never in a million years would I have EVER thought I would be attending such an event, let alone taking my son.  Here goes nuthin’.